A Bunch of Stupid Shit

I'm thinking about stopping drinking all together because I no longer like being drunk.

I'm also thinking about cutting down on how often I smoke because I need to learn how to enjoy being sober again.

My math prof read in the paper that because Gov. Jindal cut the budget for next year so that starting in the fall Tuition and book costs are going to be doubled.

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Thank the lawd I'll have the GI Bill by then.

Today has been an excellent day. Here's an update on what's been going on lately.

I was living at my dad's house. But my dad and step mom split up, so I'm now living with my grandparents. Besides this, everything else has been fucked up lately, shit sucks. But for some reason today was different. I felt so good today. All I did was do yard work at my grandparent's house with my dad, go to work, and now I'm in Baton Rouge hanging out with Ian, John, Tim, and Rachael(sp). And even though today was nothing very special, I am feeling that today was the best day I've had in years. I'm am on the verge of tears thinking how good today was.

It's so strange how common things can have such a massive effect on ones emotions.

On Wednesday I will be making my migration to Baton Rouge to take my place in the halls of my father.

Also: cocks

This is probably the funniest thing on a shirt I've ever seen.

I read too much into things and I worry too much.

I think I did pretty well.

My dreams are becoming much less frequent, but when they do occur they are so strange that it's hard to understand them. I wish I could live in my dreams. The only thing about them is that she is becoming a more frequent character in them, and I have no idea what it is supposed to mean.

I wish I was in Baton Rouge all ready.

I've finally decided that instead of waiting until May to move in with my dad that I'll be moving in with him over the Christmas break.

Baton Rouge I'm on my way.

Also: we found naturally occuring fungi in the roots of wild saltmarsh plant samples last week at my internship. They've never been found in these kinds of plants before! The is just the first scientific discovery that I'll be involved in in my life because IMA DA BEST.

Also: I turned 19 today :D

oh god i have blue balls again

it hurts so bad, if any girls are reading this please let me fuck you so it will go away.

this post is super serious

Why does it seem that almost everyone besides my friends from high school suck ass?

Some times I think I'd be happy just to hang out with my friends and be able to afford a shitty apartment, internet, cigarettes, phone, weed and beer.

I wish I found hapiness in the pursuit of knowledge or in doing things that are actually of value, but I find I can find contentment in stupid, petty shit.

I started my internship for my Honors Biology class. I'm going to be working on using root associated fungi in helping restore saltwater marshes along the coast of Mississippi. Neat, huh?

What we are trying to do right now is figure out how to get the saltmarsh grass to take up the spores from the fungi. What these fungi do is basicly increase the root area of the plant, making much easier for the plant to pick up nutrients from the surrounding soil. So far they haven't had any success, but there are many ideas as to why. It may be the mixture of fungi in the innoculant, it may be that the marsh grasses at the labs are always water logged(as they would be in the wild) or it may be the soil mixture we are using. I can't wait to go again because I think it's going to be a very fun and interesting project.

Sad thing is though, I only get to go for 3 hours a week on Thursdays. Talk about lame.

So I'm watching CNN expecting to hear something about one many of the major world events playing out. Maybe they'll report on the Georgia/Russia hostilities or the new US missle pact with Poland. The presidential race perhaps. Instead I turn it on and they do a report on a fucking escaped monkey in TOKYO. With all this major shit happening, some of which involves the US, either directly or indirectly, and they do a god damn report on a fucking monkey in Tokyo.

For some reason I got really pissed off when I saw this. Why, when there are so many more important things to report on, do they decide to waste air time with useless stories about some monkey in Japan?

i miss you

I would really like to learn how to play banjo. It's one of the coolest sounding instruments ever. It also seems like it'd be really fun to play one considering no one else does.

Hell yeah, I;ve been feeling good for the first time in what seems like ages, I believe I've come out of my depression.

I just started listening to the Black Keys, they're the shit.

Hopefully getting a job at the Kanaroo, I liked working in my Dad's convenient store, the job was actually kinda fun, I hope it will be the same there should I get hired.

I'm not looking foward to never seeing my friends again(at least until I go to Uni), because if the last several months are any indication, I won't have any chance of seeing them again once they go to college.

I can't wait to move out when I get the chance. I'd love to keep living with my mom, but I can't stand living with my brother.

I got so many things to say to too many people and I can't find the proper words let alone the courage to speak them.

My life actually seems to be more worth living now that I'm not in school any more. Having to walk through those institutions of bigotry and bullshit and seeing everyday the things I hate most in humanity for that many years of my existence just sucked the will to live out of me. Knowing I never have to go back there for as long as I live just draws a huge sigh of relief from my chest. The people are what I will miss the least, most of the student body, the faculty and administration. Not one moment of nostalgia is reserved for them.

On another note, the job search starts soon...